not done

Okay, I must admit, I felt like I totally messed up today's paper. It felt as though it was so bad (obviously because I couldn't answer so many questions) that a divine intervention wouldn't suffice. Hold that thought!

Today I was just browsing through my old blog. I used to have such a different writing style, and it felt more intimate with my readers. That said, they used to be just my close friends and family. Now I occasionally meet strangers who say they know me through reading my blog!

But that's a whole different story. You see, in my opinion, a blog is an AWESOME tool! So many forgotten memories have been rekindled while I was clicking my way through last year's posts. Back when I didn't really care how my photos/videos looked.
But I must say, these 2 years, I've learnt SO MUCH! I've grown spiritually, sadly not physically, and omg compare these photos (of Melbourne city).

This image was uploaded on the 28th of March 2007. Probably shot with my old SE W810i handphone.



And this was taken on August 18 2008.



Not self praising la, but, COME ON! Haha.

Anyway, back to my point. I was just reading about how life was during my Pre-Vet Year, and how I always looked forward to starting the "REAL" vet course. From when I just arrived,



..to when I was just a small individual in this BIG FOREIGN CITY trying to adapt..


Bouverie St was where I used to live in a humble studio apartment.

..till now, I know my parents have always been REALLY proud of me and what I'm doing. They've ALWAYS been so supportive and understanding, and mind you, sending your kids down here to do Vet Science isn't really that cheap! My dad has been working real hard to give us a better future.

But today, I felt like I messed everything up. I couldn't believe how unprepared I was for my paper, and how it felt like one of those nightmares in the exam hall when you don't know what you're reading about.

I was really depressed in the REB, and I just sat there and thought, WHAT IF I really failed this? What if?

And I began to think of all sorts of stuff..

You see, if I failed this, I'd have to pay almost AUD$10,000 more on top of the current fees just to repeat the same thing next year. Yes, that's how bad the economy went. And yes, I was VERY scared.

Before I came here, I remember my mom telling me, if you feel like you're not fit for Vet Science, just change ok? Even if it's after a year. (HOW SUPPORTIVE!)

And then I had an evil evil thought, 'Oh well, if I fail this, maybe I can get into desgin'.

I tried not thinking about how bad I did after the paper, and continued holding on to that little glimmer of faith. But as I was looking through my Xanga, I came upon this post.



Suddenly I felt like God was saying to me. 'I'm not done with you yet.'

I felt better. I felt that I could actually pass my Anatomy paper. So what I'm gonna do now, is to stop blogging, and do whatever I'm able to do now, the best I possibly can. I'll let Him take care of the rest.

Thank you so much, Mom and Dad for being supportive all the time. Sorry I always tend to wonder whether Vet Science is right for me, when all I had to do was buck up.